"Have you already graduated?" "When are you going to graduate?" These kind of questions are recently annoying for me. People around me often ask those questions and me, just get bored to answer because the answer is sooooo looooooooooooonnggggggg :D Besides, I've been feeling not satisfied with the institution I'm studying at, so it makes me more sad to answer their similar questions. The tail of this story becomes only *sigh* *sigh* and *sigh*
Well, to be honest, and this is actually the fact, that I'm not stupid or lazy student. I'm quite smart and my GPA is good, so what's wrong with my thesis then? I can say there's no significant progress of my thesis in 2012. In early 2012, in the end of March to be exact, I started to get my outline done. And you know what? I, oh "we", me and my friends in this batch, needed to wait for the announcement for 3 MONTHS, with heart beating up more and more day by day, and intensified my prayer, whether our outlines were approved or not. In June, the notification came out with the result most of outlines were approved; Alhamdulillah mine belonged to the approved ones. After that, I had to meet my examiners; first examiners and the second one. Successfully met my first examiner somehow couldn't make me happy at all because unfortunately, my second examiner was pregnancy-off and could immediately start to work on campus again in September. Wee... -______-
So, what did I do in waiting for 3 months? Nothing. I enjoyed my "everyday is holiday", played games (I played the same game over and over till I got three times winning -___-), and did whatever I thought interesting even though it's not important and, I can say, trashed activities, buuttttttt sometimes I checked my outline then searched for any related references which will be used later on.
September. My feeling blurred out between "I'm happy finally I will get my first thesis revision" and "Oh my, I almost forget what my thesis discuss about, and I'm enjoying my trashed activities now; I'm not ready for any serious thesis concern." Hahaha... However, finally I met my second examiner and got my first thesis guidance/consultation. And what? My thesis ought to be taken apart and I ought to make a new one with new discussion, purpose, and theories. Oh my.... *dizzy* Don't call me Monica if I couldn't do that in very short time! (yay *cheering myself up*). In a week, I get my revision done and handed it to my second examiner.
Then, about two weeks later, I met her again to evaluate my paper-work. Done done done. A few days later I met her again to borrow book and asked anything that related to the major theme I'm working out. Two weeks later, I handed it until............................................ *death beep sound* Until I'm writing this post, I can't get my thesis guidance soon because my second examiner is off during this, next, two, three week(s). I don't know when I will met her again discussing my thesis. Please believe me, I need to get my proposal done and hold proposal presentation so I can continue my work on chapter 4~ the analysis.
Maybe I'm unwanted? Or well, I have to admit it, I'm stupid in analyzing data in literature? Or what?
I really get into my major theme I'm working out now, I enthusiastically do my thesis, I want to get into this deeper and deeper, and I enjoy doing this so much. But, the universe (read: examiners) seem unbalance. Yeah, I shouldn't have complained it because well, the lecturers in literature major are over-busy and the condition of the institution under my study seems to be facing the crucial terms (like this; like my/my friends cases).
All I can say is be patient. Even though, if there's no such obstacles like these, I probably graduate in December 2012 or March 2013. Now, struggling for March is almost impossible. It's already November and I've had thesis guidance only twice... *sigh* However, I still believe in God's power and will. He would make my ways easier and anything I've gone through this year, maybe, His way to teach me and to give rewards after all. Just keep going and FIGHTING~!